Halloween Friday the weather is going to be in the 60's today and High 50's tonight. Kids will be out trick or treating. And I am off for the weekend and I am glad of that. Hope everything is all right with all of you. I am really tired for some reason. Why, I enjoy the walk to work better than the one going home is beyond me. But, maybe I am fresher in the morning than in the afternoon. I intend to catch up with everyone this evening or this weekend. Hope you all have a good weekending Halloween. Watch all that candy

Just came across this because I was looking for the weekend teaser. Not sure I should be here because I don't have anything positive to offer and all my negative crap is already on my own blog.
I think I've reached the point where unhappiness, loneliness and frustration are just a way of life and I don't see that there is any way of fixing that. Medication doesn't work, counselling doesn't work, I've tried it all, this is just how I am. Sometimes I can feel happy and good about life, but it is very hard to hold onto those thoughts.
I've been thinking about making a major change in my life, but even if it were feasible, I'm not sure it would really change anything, I would still be the same person with the same problems - and probably a few more too.
I don't know how to change who I am inside and that is really where the problem lies.
So, like I said, I probably shouldn't be here because I have nothing to offer anyone, too wrapped up in my own self-pity I guess. I dump everything onto my blog because I don't have anyone to share it with in the real world, or rather, because I don't think it's fair to inflict it on the people I could share it with.
the irony is that I have something really exciting to look forward to next week, and I know I will have a wonderful time, but I also know it won't last and I will be back in this place again.
Thanks for listening, and take care.

I have this "friend", She's pretty fucked up at the moment.
She has a husband, an 8yr old daughter, 2 year old twins and a 5 month old baby.
She loves them all dearly, Her husband is absolutely amazing, he couldn't be a better husband and father.
He is her rock without him she would be dead already..

She has a nice home and nice things, She has a life that many would crave for.
She is grateful for everything she has and she knows that she should be happy.
But that's the problem she isn't happy, She hasn't been happy for a long long time.

She doesn't know why she is unhappy, It's just the way it seems it's always been.
She isn't cut out for motherhood, She wonders why she was stupid enough to have so
many children.
Yes she loves them with a love stronger than words can express but she hates them too,
She hates the crying and the constant demands.
They want more than she feels she can give.
Her baby is such a gorgeous bundle of cuteness but he drives her crazy.
His cries tear through her heart and make her feel like a failure.
He has been really fretful lately, Maybe he is teething...
My friend just isn't coping she has dark thoughts,
Thought's that scare her, Thought's to awful to write.